secret lakeside

looking back i noticed of many things that kept me from developing properly.

little to no parental guidance
having empty childhood memories
being born with personal disavantages
being raised on a shallow enviroment that hinders my growth.

i indulge myself in mindless fantasies in which creates many bad habits where negativity & uncertainity were born.

its the only thing i know to cope my lost time.

i sometimes think if i was born in a proper family household to be a well-developed person full of joy & happiness.

that will be nice.... but i have to dealt the cards i have in my hands.....

edit: i fixed the painting showing the hurtful symbol irl i didn't mean to paint it i was trying to paint stick figures doing jojo poses at that time