im so tired im so bored of this life, i know i should be grateful yet all i can feel is resentfull

have you heard of Lachesism, its where you want a disaster in your life so a great change can come your way, just watch fight club and watch shack building videos and also some renewable energy shit. Just live off the grid so you dont have to live amongst others. I used to dream of this when i was around 13-14

I think I understand what you mean, of course I am not you so I can't just say I feel you. Being homeless is something good actually, you're outside materialism, you're not forced into social constructs. And what, in my opinion, makes it so beautiful it's that you make what you need and want. With no competition, no people to judge, no nothing, you can do it in your way, you can hunt your way, you can build your way, it is essentially actual freedom. And to be honest, I believe you should go experiment with being homeless, you shouldn't care what your beloved ones says, in the end it's what you think it's right for you, and you're above someone keen to see you (I mean, you can still meet them while homeless)

However, I'd like to warn you you should first make simulacrums, it's not easy not having commodities. I myself have made simulacrums in the forest near my house. In the end, we're not super-people that can just go away and that.

In any way, great video, have a good afternoon.

8:15 thats one thing too is that hardship in life makes it more fun in the times you have it easy and gives you cool stories to tell people about and character development as well having experienced more things and hard times. there was a time where i didnt have any electricity for 4days and my moms husband was really mad at me and mom over something really stupid at the same time and i had to use candles at night. and it was hard as an internet addicted person having no internet and no hot water since the buttons to turn on hot water in the kitchen ran on electricity and no light at night but my family discovered new dishes using only a few ingredients we had that were delicious and when i got electricity and internet again it felt so good. ive been in a car crash before too. almost got kicked out of my house because of some family argument. dealt with vidlii drama. etc but if i had the ability to erase what happened i wouldnt because it still developed who i am to this day.

1:38 i mean homeless generally implies like out of desperation even if technically it doesnt mean that. like the homeless people who have enough money to get a place to stay but choose not to are called nomads or vanlife. even then usually they have like a vehicle or in the case of nomads traditionally it was like entire families and tribes living in tents with horses or camels to transport everything and they could setup entire towns in the middle of nowhere and then leave when they felt like leaving or ran out of food to another place. like mongolia or ancient arabia or ancient native americans

when you fantasize about being homeless, you're fantasizing about freedom itself, and being homeless is just the most achievable way to be. I fantasized about it and actually did quit my job and became homeless for a short period of time. that was great, but it was great because 1. I had money 2. I had a car and 3. I knew that I had people who would let me stay with them if I needed to. after a couple weeks, I got a place again, and I'm glad I did. being homeless is a very short-term solution, and it's not sustainable.

when you say that you feel so constrained when you're following your goals, that's definitely true, but it'll pay dividends later when you've gotten closer to what you want.

don't ignore the desire for freedom, but be very calculated about it. since you're not even living on your own yet, just try to enjoy not having to pay rent. the time goes by fast.

I feel this fr