tbh, I can't wait for this worship system to perish

also I don't want to get anyone confused. my twin brother brings up the guy that used to bully me. the whole drama stems from when we was little, we had rocky relationship. my parents would argue a lot and place the blame on us. to my twin, my dad favors me and to me, my mom favors him so we was already divided in relationship. my older brother kept things in stable until he was killed when he was 19 and we was 15. he was in gang but he never use a gun until he confronted someone who got jealous of his gf from what i've heard. after his death, my mom and dad would place the blame and everything on us. my dad died just to see us failures and so these animosity continued. I caused a lot happen to my twin brother and for bossing his around and try to build better relationship. it's hard when he doesn't forgives and hept most of the hatred towards me just to worship the bully. now you see how it affected me!

also I know it's embarrassing. but twins think differently. i'm sorry for uploading but I have to get things off my chest. the whole worship somebody affects you in major ways

some things in this world makes you cracked